Another Loss

Dreams my come true, but not for me so it seems. . .

Brian and I did IVF this round. We began Lupron injections on Sept 23 to stop my body from releasing any eggs it may produce. I began my Gonal F and low dose HCG injections on Oct 1. After poking my belly 4 times a day for 10 days, itwas finally time to do my trigger shots on Monday October 11th. We went in on Wednesday October 13th for our egg retrieval which resulted in 14 eggs being removed. That was also the day I began Progesterone shots (not fun).

The lab used a procedure called ICSI, where they took the donor sperm and injected one into each egg. Of the 14, 12 fertilized. The lab called on day 2 stating that nine of the 12 fertilized eggs were dividing, however they were all fractured. It looked best if we did a day 3 transfer.

So Saturday October 16, 2010, Brian, and I head to the dr office to have 2 embryos transfered. It was Sweetest Day.

Now begins the dreaded 2WW (week wait). . . it was the longest 2 weeks of my life! The Lab called on Tuesday 10/19 to tell me none of the remaining embryos were of a good enough quality to be cryo preserved. . . We went in for testing on Friday October 29. My beta number was 7.5. . . yes implantation occured, but that number is way too low, it should be around 100 at that point. So another appointment was made for Monday morning.

Monday I just know it's bad. . . and I was right. My beta dropped to a 2.5, and anything under 5 is negative. . . as of Thursday November 4th we have another 2 angels in Heaven watching over and waiting for us.


We are praying about what to do next. I would like to try one more time, Brian says he can't take another loss. . . so please keep us in your prayers. We won't be making any final decisions until after the holidays.